princessdumdums

its the back drivers door

but still 🥲

sleep doctor said we are going to work on my sleep schedule first before moving on with more testing

love a plan

not me seeing my nsfw account post on my feed 🤣 spooked me

the water meter had a leak

had to shut it off

husband fixed it

before all this we argued (nothing new ik) and something ive been saying to him for months finally clicked (🙄)

he imo has a drinking problem and thats a different convo for another day but he will avoid telling me if hes been drinking or not because he thinks im trying to shame him and ive been telling him that i ask so i can adjust my tone and wording for him

this morning he told me he finally heard what i was saying

kinda pissed me off but whatever

i got onto him again last night (yeah yeah yeah) and i told him he needs to pull his head out of his ass and look at how he actually treats me

not how he thinks he does

now how he wants to

but how he ACTUALLY treats me

and to stop projecting on me and that he is going to need to get comfortable with criticism and that at the end of the day the flaws he has for the most part can not be swept under the rug and ignored forever and someone else who is not as kind or patient will point them out to him as they are things that need to be changed to fix issues that could be more avoidable

and to stop fucking lying about things

we got into it about trust and what not and i told him thar i have a hard time believing him when he says he will get something done as hes said it befoee and nothings gotten done

he then gets very defensive and im like it is YOUR actions and YOUR track record that have created this response

ive told him i wish i could believe in him wholeheartedly but i dont

and that its because of the way he treats me

and ive told him and told him that he needs to treat me well to get the same treatment hes been wanting

yada yada yada

ill find something new to post about it

i got thoughts yall are going to witness later

just spent $1255.57 on getting my water heater fixed

currently mourning my ot paycheck that did so good

but i officially have hot water again and went and got the legal aid paperwork needed for the divorce process

this was infact the pumpkin patch vibe for yesterday that i was immediately humbled by the pumpkin patch not being open

today im going to the pumpkin patch

how exciting

from the i cried post

he is color blind but can see red decently so i get more stuff in red granted i already like the colori got "nice"

thinking about it as it would be good for bear to have someone to match his energy

at the same time my husband would be pissed