Fuck everything
Fuck streaming services, fuck the governments, fuck the countries, fuck the borders, fuck Discord, fuck Reddit, fuck YouTube, fuck Apple, fuck Android, fuck Samsung, fuck Windows, fuck Microsoft, fuck Sony, fuck Xbox & Playstation wars, fuck everyone, fuck sleeping, fuck heatwaves & summer, fuck waking up, fuck going to the same place doing the same shit everyday for the rest of your life and most of all fuck the world for putting people with autism down and giving us no choices, I feel so stuck in a system that doesn’t want me where I don’t belong. Life is so difficult I can’t make friends I can’t find friends or people who are not weird (I mean people who just drink and smoke and want to piss away their lives and don’t care about anything, no ambition). I am so so sick of everything I am sick of feeling like I have to do this because someone says so I am sick of having to do things because people say so I am sick of waking up everyday to the same bullshit everyday I am so physically exhausted my body feels like it could just shatter at any point I am so fucking tired I don’t know what’s wrong with me anymore. I am mentally exhausted my visions blurry I’m so stressed I feel like there’s this heavy fucking weight all over my body that is dragging me deep into the ground, I can’t escape.
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How I feel when my shared kitchen space has been occupied for the last 3hours and I've only had a glass of orange juice today 🤕🤕
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Yeah, there’s a lot of “suck” in the world today, it definitely piles up on me too, sometimes.
If I’m feeling restless I go for a bike ride, and if I’m feeling sedentary I re-watch my favorite shows.
Either way I try to pay a little extra attention to drinking water and getting good sleep, and I usually feel better in a day or so.
Sometimes we just need to hang on and ride it out a little :-/
Feel any better after that? I mean probably not, but one could hope, right?
We, the neurodivergent, live in a world that wasn't designed to handle us.
I'm not Autistic, but I have ADHD. Different, but still have to navigate a world that is unkind to my mind, so I get it.
Different ways of thinking are superpowers. See, they label them as disabilities, but we have abilities that normal people cannot possess...like hyperfocus.
I'm sorry you are feeling so frustrated. I pray that you will find a way and the means to create your own world that is kind to you, motivates you, and is filled with just the right people to make the larger chaotic world fade into oblivion for you. Hang in there. This too shall pass.
Like you I have Autism I think i understand in some way even I wish I can have my own business one day
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